The
Ongoing Search for The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill
The first
time
I saw The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill sign, there was an inch of slushy
water on
the floor, but it was only early April and we knew there would be more.
There’s
a pump, the realtor said.
I
was there with Weird Harold; we were contemplating buying the place. It
was the
basement of a big old building in Crested Butte that had once been the
company
store for the Colorado Fuel and Iron Company that had once squeezed
hell out of
the biggest coal mine, the miners and most of the town. Weird Harold
was a
jeweler with a tenuous relationship to some money somewhere behind him;
I was a
local booster-press newspaper publisher who had been reading too much
of my own
stuff. A visit to the SBA down in
But
there it was, painted on the wall in a room in the flooding basement of
the
former company store in Crested Butte, a quality graffiti: The Bird Is
Dead Bar
and Grill.
I
commenced investigative journalism. The best I could do was to trace it
back to
the very beginning of Crested Butte’s descent into resortism,
circa 1961: an
Among
the treasures he’d accumulated was an ornate bird cage, with a
well-preserved
air-dried dead bird in it. He was too much of an aesthete to do the
proper
thing; instead, he kept cage and bird intact. And people would come in,
and
they would admire the cage – then do a double-take. Uh.... they
would start,
looking toward him with raised brows.
Yes,
he would say. The bird is dead.
That
of course does nothing to explain why there was a grafitti painting on
the wall
of a cell down in the basement of the old company store: The Bird Is
Dead Bar
and Grill.
But
it all continues to resonate in the labyrinths of randomness loitering
in the
nexus of my mind. Hemingway talked about “the moveable
feast”; for me, it’s The
Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill – the place where I find myself from
time to time
remembering what life is trying to be. The last time I was in The Bird
Is Dead
Bar and Grill, it was at the Dillon Dam Brewery in Frisco where I was
harassing
the editor of this publication and meeting a parade of people who found
him
worth seeking out. The time before that was last spring in the Eldo at
Crested
Butte’s annual Flauschink Ball, which usually escalates to The
Bird Is Dead Bar
and Grill level at some point.
There
have been other episodes in recent years – the night at the
Gunnison Brewery
when brewmeister
That
basement in Crested Butte’s Company Store eventually became The
Bird Is Dead
Bar and Grill on occasion. A couple guys who could actually afford that
kind of
mistake bought the building, and (after turning on the pumps) turned
the
basement into a bar. Their name for the place was The Tailings, which
was a
clever enough name for a basement bar in a former mine town. I thought
at first
they should have taken the name off the wall back in the little
basement room,
but I came to realize that it takes more than a name to vivify a myth.
One
of the times when The Tailings became The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill
was
Thanksgiving, circa 1970. It was one of those maddening years when the
snow
didn’t come and didn’t come – six or eight years
before the ski area installed
snowmaking stuff – and Thanksgiving was basically dry.
There’s nothing in the
mountains so depressing as a sunny Thanksgiving morning with no snow
below
10,000 feet. If you’ve lived in the mountain towns long,
you’ve been there; you
know that November is the cruelest month.
So
anyway, since we couldn’t go to work and/or go skiing, which was
all we wanted
to do at that point, we had a big hippie potluck down in The Tailings
to which
even some of the hippie-hating pilgrims came; everybody brought
something along
with their usual insatiable appetite for everything, and we all got
roaring fed
and drunk and danced to the jukebox, and at some point, like the dove
descending, The Tailings became The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill.
Then
somebody who had left had the good grace to come back in to tell us it
was
snowing upstairs, outside. So we all ran up the stairs, out into the
night, to
feel it snow on us as though we had never felt it on our tongues
before, to
throw it around and roll in it a little; Murray cranked up the volume
on the
juke downstairs and The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill moved out into the
street.
That night and the next day it snowed about 18 inches. Too late of
course to
salvage Thanksgiving weekend but what the hell. A typical night in The
Bird Is
Dead Bar and Grill.
It
doesn’t even have to be a place which you know, where you are
known. Up on a
tour of the Olympic Peninsula once with my partner Maryo, we stopped in
Everett, Washington, which had an interesting history for anyone who
has done
time in a sawmill; I wanted to try to talk my way into a tour of the
big
Simpson mill there the next day, so we found ourselves in some bar for
a
hamburger that night where we also discovered Full Sail Ale for the
first time.
It was a friendly place or at least tolerant, and it was karaoke night,
an
event I usually try to avoid, but that night, blessed by the veil of
anonymity
and the flap of the Full Sail, I fulfilled a lifelong secret desire to
be Grace
Slick singing “White Rabbit.” I will not call it a success
because in The Bird
Is Dead Bar and Grill, success is irrelevant. Don’t ask,
don’t tell.
Between
those blessed events of course is always the usual run-of-the-mill bar
non-events. Nine times out of ten – no, 99 times out of 100, when
you walk into
a bar, it’s just a bar and stays that way, a convocation of
semi-sodden
mendicants sitting in the church of their choice waiting for the
species to
evolve. That’s okay: a lot of life is putting in time waiting for
the species
to evolve. But one continues to go in – I continue to go in with
the hope that
at any moment the right person or persons will walk in, sit down on the
next stool
or stools, the right thing or things will be said or done, the right
spirits
invoked or provoked in the right proportions, and all those devout
gathered
alcohol burners will sputter, hiss and flare, and like the dove
descending we
will all upshift into the overdrive of The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill.
A
lot of people actually turn into drunks nurturing that hope –
thinking that
somehow The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill comes from the alcohol and not
the
burners. I just read a good book about life in an Appalachian coal town
– “Coal
Run,” by a woman purportedly named Tawni O’Dell, who
nevertheless has to have
grown up in a place like Crested Butte when it was still coal-run, and
who must
have hung out with older brothers and uncles in the kinds of places
where The
Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill was truly dying but not yet dead. She made a
distinction between drunks and hard drinkers: “A hard drinker is
a man who
drinks to help him cope. A drunk is a man who drinks because he
can’t cope.” A
pretty sexist statement from Tawni – some of the best and worst
hard drinkers
and drunks I’ve known have been women.
Myself,
I’m neither a hard drinker nor a drunk, not yet anyway; I’m
just a mendicant out
on the prowl for The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill because it helps me
cope – the
memory, promise and hope of it helps me cope.
A
night – or an afternoon, for that matter – in the Bird Is
Dead Bar and Grill is
like a good wake: a not entirely conscious but thoroughly conscientious
effort
to begin remaking history as it should have been – a time to
start roughing out
the legends behind the mere stories, roughing them out not just in word
but
deed, dancing deed, as well. A time when memory serves, but isn’t
allowed to
dictate.
Afternoons
are actually often best for seeking The Bird Is Dead Bar and Grill
– if you can
get in and out with some semblance of grace, and don’t try to
hang onto the
moment so long that they have to mop you up at closing. Between the
closed blue
of the day sky and the pin-pricked black of night, when the sky goes
translucent just after sunset – that’s the time to leave
after the afternoon,
to go out into that time between day and night when the sky is open to
forever.
I
don’t cry much, or easily, but when tears come it is usually in
that time that
opens up between day and night, like after an afternoon in the
Grubstake with
Big Al in Crested Butte, or in the Boardwalk in Crawford with Pete
Wiebe, or
Kochevar’s in Crested Butte after the Flauschink parade and
I’ve just had a
perfect and fulfilling dance with a woman whose name I didn’t
even ask, the
ultimate rock-polka fusion, and I’m leaving The Bird Is Dead Bar
and Grill and
spiraling my way toward home weeping for what we all could be, might
be, should
be, maybe eventually will be. Rejoicers, celebrants, mendicants finding
our
wealth.
Then
I say, like anyone in a similar moment might say, like they used to say
back
before we got rid of kings:
“Yes!
No! The bird is dead! Long live the bird!” ***
|